Things are getting kind of crazy here lately... Boys train Tuesday's at Starwest, Thursday and Saturdays at Glen Helen.  

I  have been cleaning closets and other small projects so I dont worry when they are gone.  My heart isn't into it yet... I don't know if it is because I can't deal with another injury, or the fact I dont GET the feeling Kameron wants to go pro. His training, excerise program is a joke in my opinion, he doesn't seem motivated or focused.

 

The summer of 8th grade Kameron came to me and said he wanted to play football...

Oh wait here is the story and it got published in Motokids magazine  bottom article [busy kids]

Ok.. that was motivated and focused... 

I think the worst thing I did was make them stop racing. Some of you may never understand the sport and that is ok with me.

uh oh to be continued.

The boys were supposed to race tomorrow and thankfully they are not!  Kameron has been having some really bad training days and he said "I don't want to embarrass myself"

Hmmm wonder why?  The ridiculous work out program? Or maybe the girlfriend and staying out till 12am at her house? or maybe its the getting up at 11am? nevermind its probably just me being negative... {Have I said anything to him or Sam about it - uh sort of] Sam says he has to figure it out for himself, we cant make him do it.... Sam is right so I bite my tongue...

Soooo anyway... I guess his 2 sisters and their husbands were at Perris Raceway today watching his nephew CJ ride. 

Now that is a sad story... 

We talked Sam's Mom into moving to the desert 10 years ago... from the beach... anyway... Then about 4 years ago... Sam says to his Mom..

:"Mom, I have a lot for sale around the corner from my house.  Why don't you consider selling this one, I will build you a home at cost from the sale of this home and that way when you need the grass cut, or something done... the boys or I can come right over"

Well, long story short she did sell that house...

Then we moved her out of her home [we paid for it]

Paid for an apartment for 4 months while her home was being built. 

She sold her home for $120,000.

We got EVERYTHING for cost to build the new one.  We called in all the sub contractors favors we had been promised... You know... plumber says "Thanks for all the work you send my way, if you EVER need anything you got it"

Etc...

Sam's Mom went WAY overbudget!  but you know what we didn't even care... it was Sam's way of saying thanks for all you've done for us. 

OMG!!! I just remembered this... Sam was married before me and they had a house but Sam's Mom took over payments so it wouldn't go into foreclosure. When they divorced they were going to sign the house over to her but before that was done. His ex-wife [we'll chat that later] got an attorney who attached a lien on the house for their divorce. So fast forward to us building her home, she actually asked to have that money put towards the house... and we did!

She was $20,000 over budget when she decided she wanted a pool... and guess what we gave it to her...

Then we paid to move her stuff from storage to the new house!

A month after we are done, she realizes we haven't put her on title yet and she freaks out.  Sam says "Mom Ill sign it over to you and as we decided before the build when you sell it in the future you can pay me for the lot." I believe the amount was $22,000. We asked,  what we paid for it not a dollar more,even though at the time it was worth triple!

She freaked... didn't remember anything about that and then later said I told her it was a $10,000 lot.

She went around town to family and everyone who would listen... her son Sam and his wife tried to rip her off! Can you imagine?  I wish someone would rip me off everyday like that!  Not to mention at the time of her death 2 years ago the home had increased in value from $120,000 to $469,000....  anyway during that time no one called Sam to get his side of the story they just believed her!  I told him to call his sisters and tell them the truth, he said "No, I haven't done anything wrong and they should give me the benefit of doubt."

The truly sad part of it is my kids were treated like they didn't exist!  My mother in law never really liked me [she loved his ex] and I tried so many times to bend over backwards for her and then I quit trying.  Funny thing was when she got sick and went into the hospital, 5 months before her death, she changed and I believe she realized how mean she had been to me.  After the funeral Sam was so upset saying "Every one of those people think I ripped my Mom off today"  and even though he is the oldest his sisters took charge of everything and still have not included him in on stuff!  Now they control Grandpa stuff too and conveniently bought Grandpa's cabin 2 years ago...  the one he believes all his kids own... Sam set him straight on that on his last visit... I don't know but it sure seems funny the ones who believe we ripped Grandma off are the ones who have been benefiting the most!  It isn't about the money either because Ill be honest with you we are fine in that area...

Anyway, I could go on and on... but he saw them today at the track and said they were all pleasant with each other.  So sad...especially for a man who has a great reputation.

Who values his reputation more than anything money can buy. 
Sam says if you can look someone in the eye and give them your word, and your word is good, then your the richest man in the world no matter what...

so you can see how bad that hurt him.  It hurt me too... I think all of you should know what kind of person I am by now.  I am a very giving, loving, loyal person.  I don't like people who hurt others because they are jealous.  I HATE betrayal more than anything. I don't like people who WORSHIP money and things. Who will step on anyone to get power and be greedy.  I will take a lot of things, probably take too much bullshit from people but when I'm done with a relationship, I'm done. I don't seek revenge, I believe Karma will come back on them, and I walk away.

 

That is a small peak into me and what I would never say out there ;)

Thank you for being a part of my life.  I value each and every one of you, for who you are inside!  Every one of you have taught me something by allowing me to be apart of your lives and I am grateful

 

BIG HUGS WITH LOVE